shout out

Shout out to Ella! My only follower... haha

You are a great friend, you have gotten to know me pretty well and you can always make me smile :)

LOVE YOU GIRL!

Judged.

Everyone gets judged, sometimes behind your back and sometimes to your face.  It seems to  be strangers that usually judge us, but not always.  Tonight it was my mom.  Now I don't want it to seem that I don't love her, because I do.  But we have differences of opinion, and different things that we want out of life.  There is no rule on how life should be lived, and things can be done in different order or not at all.  Just because things haven't fallen into place like the perfect world would have them doesn't mean that I should be judged for that.

I'm not a bad person, I'm not even a different person that you know, or raised.  So why do you have to say, or ever THINK things that can hurt.  

And the things that are being worried about and said, what if they were to happen or were true? Would I be loved any less, would you really feel or treat me differently?

The thing is, I'm not sorry for how my life is.  I'm sorry its not your "ideal" life, but it IS MY LIFE, and this is how it has fallen in place.  I don't know what is to come, but this judgement doesn't help.

Can't you just love me for how I am, and not what you wish my life was.

Can you really love someone and judge them at the same time?

I don't know.